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BVB= Black Veil Brides
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TH= Tokio Hotel
BOTDF= Blood On The Dance Floor


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Because it is my name! Because I cannot have another in my life! Because I lie and sign myself to lies! Because I am not worth the dust on the feet of them that hang! How may I i've without my name? I have given you my soul; leave my name!~John Proctor, Act 4, The Crucible

• REAL BVB fans- know what BVB stands for
• REAL BVB fans- don’t like the band just because of Andy [ DON'T SWEAR ]
• REAL BVB fans- know who the only original member of the band is
• REAL BVB fans- know more songs than knives and pens
• REAL BVB fans- think Chance and Andy never gets old
• REAL BVB fans- know every band members name and what they do
• REAL BVB fans- know that Ashley Purdy is a GUY
• REAL BVB fans- have made “never give in” their motto
• REAL BVB fans- know who smokes in the band, and who doesn’t
• REAL BVB fans- have worn their makeup like Andy’s on a normal day
•REAL BVB fans- would vote for lightning thunderstein if he ran for president
• REAL BVB fans- know that it is now Biersack not Six, 6 or Sixx
• REAL BVB fans- have this on their page
:headbang: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ BVB ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ :headbang:

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✔ Mentally dating a character that doesn't actually exist

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So, my parents are divorcing. I lost job. And i have something either medically or mentally wrong with me.

:bulletblack: Loosing my job, remember my last journal, where i mentioned that my mom was fucked up on med.s and got lost and i had a mental/ emotional breakdown? Well, I was studdering, shaking, and i couldn't concentrate... It's happened at least 5 more times, since then. Aug 2. I went to see my best friend and her adopted mom and brothers. Well, my mom was prefectly fine, i was watching her and shit. But somehow someway, she got a hold of alcohol... Lets just say i had to go to work the next day and i wasn't even in the same city i was about 50+ miles away from it. So we ended up spending the night, and leaving REAL early in the morning so i could get to work. When my best friends' adopted mom saw the way my mother was, and found out its been like this for a while and that i was actually crying having that breakdown again. it scared her and my best friend, because even my friend said i don't show emotion and i never cry and she said (THe mother) i could come live with her.

:bulletblue: The breakdown? Happened at work. Expect, add the couldn't stand straight or walk straight on my own and i blacked out while giving a hair cut and completely fucked up this guys hair. This happened 2 days in a row, My boss said i could take a week off because i couldn't function. Except she called me in the middle of the week (A day later), telling me if i didn't come in by friday, i had no job. This was the same day, i had to go to the ER because the shaking, studdering, walking, standing, and concertaring hadn't stopped. The ER Dr. Isn't sure what the hell it could be...
Well, friday rolled around and my boss didn't give me a time to go in or answer any of my calls.  Though, i still couldn't function, i was going to try to work. Anyways, when i came in my boss wasn't even THERE, she was on vacation. So i left, i was risking my health and she fucking was there (I was still techinally a trainie and no one was there to TRAIN ME). I sent in an e-mail, because they needed 'official' paper work as to why i wasn't coming back. Though, i lied through my front teeth about them not being bitches. And saying my health (this part was true) wasn't getting in the way of me working, and that i didn't want to work until i was fine.

:bulletblack: Divorce. So since Nov. 2013, my father has been cheating on my mother. She knew this, my brother, sister, and I knew this. It was only until RECENTLY when my dad was leaving for Mexico (last month), that she had to terms with it. Crying, and upset. When he came back, we found out he actually brought the woman he was cheating on my mom with back with him. She's somewhere in Dallas, and my moms like "I want a divorce". With all this crying and thinking she wasn't good enough for my father, she thinks that my sibilings and i are in denial about whats going on. I So BADLY want to scream at her, that we've came to terms with it a long time ago and if she wasn't so fucking stupid it wouldn't be a problem.
Now, i know that sounds really awful to say to your mother, but most of you probably do not get it. My father abused the crap out of her and us beating and starving us. And to me, telling me i wasn't his and calling me names. Over the years, it had stopped especially when my mom went to drug rehab. but get this she didn't fully understand the rules and tried to kill herself which ended up with 2 years prison/jail time. When she finally comes back, for about a year she was good. Until she started with the medication drug addiction thing again. Yelling and fighting, happened a lot and still happens now. Include the cheating on my mom with different women over the years and her always crawling back to him.
You'll understand we are fucking fed up. Let that woman fucking have him. You two haven't slept in the same bed since Sept. 2013, and doesn't like to be home. Whats the fucking big deal if he actually doesn't live with us anymore. Its pretty much going to be the same, expect he won't come home to clean his clothes or shower. He'll be living with that woman.

P.S I think i forgot to mention, the woman is about my age. My father is 40, this woman is 20 maybe 21. I'm 19.
  • Mood: Irritated
  • Listening to: Luke Bryan- That's my kind of night

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BlackJakeRandom Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanx very much for the fave^^
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Thanks for the fav :3
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Thanks for the watch. (:
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Thanks for the fave! :)
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